ourlightsinvain replied to your post: sometimes when i encounter people on the internet…
i remember my second-grade classmates making fun of the hanbok on my korean “culture doll” i made as a school project where we had to make dolls representing our backgrounds. i glanced enviously at the british ones.
that’s the fucking thing, isn’t it, because you remember that shit, and all the asian jokes your fucking friends and classmates make pile up and then, THEN you have the anglophile phase because being asian is opening yourself up to mockery simply by being asian, and when you get over it and look back, you realize one of the reasons why you had it and you just feel kind of queasy and sick. but if you tell anybody, even people you know and like, there’s a 90 percent chance you’re gonna get told that you’re being overdramatic or overreacting, or making shit up that wasn’t there, making shit up about your own feelings and experiences.
Oh, life is a glorious cycle of song, a medley of microaggressions. :\ I’m really sorry you had to go through that. I’m really sorry any of us had to go through that. And then you hit the point in your teens when all of a sudden all the cool kids are eating the Pocky they made fun of you for bringing to school as a child and you have a hard time explaining why you snort cynically at many of your white friends’ participation in Well-Meaning Fandom Diversity and… yeah. I’ve got nothing deep or insightful to add here, just: that sucks. I see you and I hear you. I know it’s true.
Yeah, some other people have commented with their own experiences. I’m just going to post them without commentary. Explaining these things to Well-Meaning Friends is especially exhausting, because they are trying, and you know they’re trying, but sometimes you just want to tell them to shut the fuck up because you’ve had enough about hearing how your taking them to a pho restaurant or whatever “expands their horizons” or how they’ve microanaylzed the diversity in Thing You Both Like because they just don’t get it, not really, and you have no way of explaining it to them without sounding like an ass.
lol yeah. Their clueless John Cho gifsets and meta. The innocent way they marvel the first time they see dolsot bibimbap and report back to their friends like a wide-eyed young anthropologist on their first field mission. It’s not even malicious, it’s just… wearisome. And impossible to explain.